the future I plan

I don't know what people around me think about me and how they're see me either. But, strangely almost all my friends always tell and guess if I will being the one who marry first, being settle down, having husband and kids and being a responsible wife with all those cooking things and another housewives tasks.

and, well, it's okay for them to think like that

but,

to be honest, me with myself always have another idea, I don't know why, but I think I will be the last person to marry, after all my bestfriend

because  I have this 'monster' thing on me, something which there on my head or even my body' soul and heart, the rebel acts, the kind of side I wish to show to everyone.

Like, after I'm graduate from my university I'll go to another country and I really hope I could to go to countryside on UK, do what I really like which is writting, and it's okay if I just being a waitress or someone who wash plates on small restaurant everyday, and it's okay if i just can earn a little amount of money as long as it could pay my rent and my meals, then on night or weekend I could sit on chair in a corner of small cafe or under the tree on public park and writting on my notes, and listen the sexy british accent, and taste the famous Yorkshire tea, and munch the delicous English' muffin. Damn, it would be a such good and simple but love to live, and worth my feels.

and, other people will react like "Gosh, you can live your life like that ?! I never imagine you will have life like this."

Not work behind the table and in a tall building with the tower of files waiting to do.
or,
Not being the first one to settle down and having family
or,
Not being mommy in young age and just focus on my kids and husband
or,
Not in a good position and good salary in international company which make me fly to one and another city or country in just one day

It will be great, yeah ?
Do what I really really really want to do.
Just fuck of what other says

But then, I will face my mom and my dad and I know it will be difficult, because...well they don't pay my education just for me being waitress in other unfamiliar country, I know it very so much and still don't know how to make it happen. But, there's a will there's a way, so I will really happy if I could do it oneday.

HOPE.