The song from Jason Walker, What If I Told You..
What if I told you
Who I really was
What if I let you in on my charade?
What if I told you
What was really going on
No more masks and no more parts to play
There's so much I want to say
But I'm so scared to give away
Every little secret that I hide behind
Would you see me differently?
And would that be .such...a bad thing
I wonder what it would be like
If I told you
What if I told you
That's its just a front
To hide the insecurities I have
What if I told you
That I'm not as strong
As I like to make believe I am
There's so much I want to say
But I'm so scared to give away
Every little secret that I hide behind
Would you see me differently?
And would that be .such...a bad thing
I wonder what it would be like
If I told you
Oh if I told you
There's so much I want to say
But I'm so scared to give away
Every little secret that I hide behind
Oh would you see me differently?
And would that be .such...a bad thing
I wonder what it would be like
If I told you
What if I told you
What if I told you
What would it be like
What would it be like
If I told you
Oh what if I told you
Oh I wonder what it would be like
If I told you
Yeah....
What If I Told You..hmm ?
What If...
I know, my insecurities are acting up now.
And trust me, this is sucks.
It all started to fall apart again.
I feel lost inside myself.
I'm not sure if I'm depressed now, I mean I'm not sad, and I don't have any reasons to be sad nowdays, I have my family, my best friends, my friends, I laugh at jokes, I go out and have fun, I got the better final score on this semester than before, my life isn't bad and teribble.
But,
I'm not exactly happy either, because when I'm alone, at night, at my bed, like this, I forget how to feel...
So,
I fake another smile
and
trying to hold my tears
I'm suppossed to be strong, to have no fears
But my tears just dropping...
Why am I breaking down ?
I'm scared.
Who am I ?
I know
on this state, listening to sad songs with sad lyrics are false move.
I should have telling my friends and doing everything to forget about this sucks feeling.
But, isn't as simple as that.
Being insecure like this, is the most exhausted condition ever.
Because everything feels so wrong, especially me..I'm the wrong one, the nobody, no one..
And I just feel like being such a burden to my friends who constantly listening about this, about me being an ugly dramaqueen.
So, this is my favourite song now
I told you
What If I Told You...
-cheers-
..I'm not scared of falling, I'm scared of no one won't catch me..
