I'm the girl....

I'm the girl who tries to be nice to everyone then gets taken advantage of.

I'm the girl who tries to look pretty and it's never good enough.

I'm the girl who acts like she's happy then goes home and wishes to be gone.

I'm the girl who takes harsh words, act like they're nothing, then goes home and cries.

I'm the girl who tries to get her point across and could never find the right words.

I'm the girl who has more depth to her than everyone thinks.

I'm the girl who hides from the harsh eyes.

I'm the girl who wouldn't care if you gave me a shitty gift as long as you thought of me.

I'm the girl who prays that someone will finally understand.

I'm the girl who gets happy over the little things.

I'm the girl that people misinterpret.

Twenty One

12.32AM now,
and Happy Birthday to me!!

hmm, I think, I wished a lot of things last year and not a half of it came true so, for this year, my wish just, I want to be HAPPY,

HAPPY

a huge and bold HAPPY !!!

Happiness here babe come to mama~~

and God, thank you for still give me chance and time and breath.

Have a good day ahead, Nin, love you!

Used

I was reading our blog /me and best friends/, and no one write on that blog anymore /including me/, it's quiet saddening to be honest, we made that blog to be place to pour out all stories we had when we're on distant, but our tasks in college and all the things made us don't have time to do it T.T

I miss the way we used to be. I'm happy with our current time now, because well we're still on contact to each other and close to each other,

it just,

You know ? Everything feels easier and funnier back then, we were just junior high schoolers with nothing to lose, just a happy teenagers with big and a lot of dreams, or at least that's what I feel.

Huft, I miss my best friends, if I could, even just one day, I want to live life we used to.

Lately

But lately,
what I've been crying about
most is
myself
the person
I used to be
and
lost
and
the person
in the present
with no clue
about
her
future

00:49 AM